Life seems too hard sometimes. You wish to seek the stars but all you can see in just the sun. The stars, they are just blinded to the eye by the rays of the sun which burns too bright. I have this urgency in my head, i want people to acknowledge me. Its stupid. I'm not really desperate but I just want people to know i exist. I have a reminder in my phone saying, "All you need is to be crazy...the world is too normal for you.. you belong somewhere else far better, far away..so kick their asses and start you day". I have a question. can please somebody tell me what is this far better far away. I get this feeling every single day i wake up. That i am high on life, that I know something great is going to happen. I should really work hard but instead waste my day in delusion. Life is not that fair isn't it. How much ever you get, you never feel you got what you wanted. It feels as if it has a few selected favorites who get the stars and you wonder if you would be on the list. I m not scared of oblivion; i scared of being unsatisfied on death bed. I have already got the sun. And i am so proud of my little adventure in finding it. I never thought i could come this far. But i want to taste the stars.
Apoorva
Apoorva
I think instead of imagining and fantasizing about your future ......you should live in present and think about yourself in the present scenario.......just for a example if i say you want an apple ...then you don't have to cry or curse your stars and also you don't have to imagine how tasty or delicious it would be.....You just need to stand and walk through the way find the apple tree and pluck it down that's it ......so now it is completely on you what you are going to do ......sit idle and imagine about apple or pluck it down to taste it ..........decision is your's......GOOD LUCK
ReplyDeleteBy the way i am also going through all these right now as you have mentioned above but now i am understanding it slowly and trying make me ready for my stars...
Deletethank you so much. i really appreciate it. ill work through it :D
Deletethank you so much. i really appreciate it. ill work through it :D
DeleteFirstly, I am glad that you are happy for what you have achieved. But if you feel that your sun blocks the stars which you desire so much, then perhaps it is time to let go of the sun and shoot for the stars. I have been through what you mention. In life it may seem that you are not going where you want to, but the truth is that you are always going towards the best place there is for you, out there. Today, you might not realize this but in time when you will look back you would be glad that all this happened in your life. The fear you talk about, I have it too. I am never where I want to be and I keep struggling. However I never loose hope and this fear is what motivates me to keep going. If the fear gets to you too much, know one thing that you are always moving towards the best things out there for you. Even if you don't try to, because life is like a river. It keeps flowing and carrying us irrespective of we swim or not. Your stars will find a way to you if you don't. Good luck and take care.
ReplyDeleteI would like to add something. That feeling you talk about which comes to you every morning that you belong somewhere far better far away. I have had similar experiences. I keep getting such feelings too, such as "you need to wait". Sometimes I hear a mysterious "no don't" over and over again when I am doing something when I am angry or depressed. Now I have no clue what this is, maybe I am crazy and just talking to myself. Maybe god is pulling pranks on me. Maybe it's something else. However, I like to look at it as someone guiding me through my hard times, or answering my questions.
ReplyDeleteyes i completely agree with you. thank you for showing me a different perspective of my experiences. i really appreciate it. :D
DeleteI would like to add something. That feeling you talk about which comes to you every morning that you belong somewhere far better far away. I have had similar experiences. I keep getting such feelings too, such as "you need to wait". Sometimes I hear a mysterious "no don't" over and over again when I am doing something when I am angry or depressed. Now I have no clue what this is, maybe I am crazy and just talking to myself. Maybe god is pulling pranks on me. Maybe it's something else. However, I like to look at it as someone guiding me through my hard times, or answering my questions.
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